God answers our prayers.

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Hey fellow human,

Disclaimer: When I wrote this I was single,but I was not brave enough to publish it. However I just recently read it and thought it has some pretty good gems in it. 

God answers our prayers even though we don't usually see them until we have lived them for a quite a while.

I used to live with the father of my kid and when we were together I knew that I wanted to live on my own. I prayed for it over and over and eventually it slid to the back of my mind because we had a kid and life happened. Our relationship took a sour turn and I was reminded of my initial desires. And so the journey of living ‘alone’ happened but I was living with my kid and thus became a single parent. If you thought God did not have a sense of humour there it is.

I have been living alone with my kid for 2 years now and this year has felt particularly hard. It is breaking my back and bones, I am working from the sweat of my head to the point some days I feel that it is not fair. And God has answered me that I asked to live alone and here I am. I am a loner and a company of people usually gives me anxiety. In the time that I have been living alone I have been challenged to look within myself and question whether I am to accept me as I am or will I make necessary changes to help me be more like Christ. God is asking me why am I willing to accept that I may be emotionally handicapped because of my childhood and possibly previous relationships as well.

Honestly this was the most realest talk I have ever had with Him and I have grown in knowing myself with Him and viewing my weaknesses as an individual.

I have learned in my solitude that we are not meant to do life alone even if we like our independence so much. God has told me that it does not have to be so hard, why are you choosing such difficulty for yourself? I don’t regret living by myself with my kid, God has given us the strength to make it work and at the same time has shown us that there are better ways. I am glad that I can tick that off of my list of things to do as an adult, for some reason in my head this was the ultimate accomplishment and I can guess we can blame the media for that. We are not called to live like the world.

Looking back at this experience, it was not a time spent in vain, but rather a time of learning and growing in a relationship with God, of which I felt I never had with Him. And I guess this is a way of Him telling me that the time is up for my solitude phase. My wants have been given to me but He has a much better plan for my life and that is not to do life alone. I just wanted to share that God does answer our prayers even when we are not aware of them and sometimes like you will be aware when you are suppose to let go of that request and start a new chapter.

Thank you for taking the time to read, I hope you enjoyed it.

Until next post, God bless...